Rome: Spring 2007

Wed, 26 Apr 2006 18:00:26 GMT

Mine mine mine mine mine mine mine! :-)

Sun, 09 Apr 2006 05:35:41 GMT

******

Mon, 03 Apr 2006 00:21:41 GMT

I think I always feel like shit on Sunday nights. Something always has to happen.

I can't even put into words what I feel like right now. It's not bad but it's not good either. This weekend has just been up and down. I really don't get it. I wanna go home, but I'll just be bored there.

3 months and life will make sense again. Maybe. Probably unlikely.

Fri, 31 Mar 2006 05:34:10 GMT

NEW HAVEN HERE I COME!!! (Well, hopefully at least once next semester! :-)) I'm so excited!

I love

Mon, 20 Mar 2006 02:56:14 GMT

...my family
...Acton, Massachusetts
...Dunkin' Donuts
...Camp Ramah in New England
...sunshine
...Florida
...getting tan lines in 2 days
...SPN
...NCAA March Madness
...UConn basketball
...dinner dates
...looking at old pictures and videos
...having so many things to love. :-)

Haha, why am I so corny after breaks? Oh well, back to work etc. Can't believe the year is almost over and that camp is right around the corner!

FUCK

Thu, 09 Mar 2006 07:05:20 GMT

I wish jealousy could be removed from human emotion.

Crap

Tue, 07 Mar 2006 03:20:14 GMT

I really don't know how I feel about this...

Ummm

Wed, 01 Mar 2006 04:29:46 GMT

I believed the same thing for 19 years, 2 months and 12 days...why should I change now?

How come you're the only person I can talk to about this yet the only person I really can't?

Spring break is coming? I really had no idea.

Wed, 15 Feb 2006 05:09:01 GMT

LEARN TO USE A FUCKING PHONE!!

...totally going back to last year with this one. Can history not repeat itself? Please?

Fri, 03 Feb 2006 04:49:22 GMT

We're supposed to have esp and you're supposed to know that I'm stressed out and that I need you to call. Honestly, don't you know that? I wish we could talk soon. I wish you would come visit. I wish all my work would go away!

Fri, 20 Jan 2006 06:14:23 GMT

It's supposed to be different...

PS- I hate you.

Revelations

Sun, 15 Jan 2006 16:05:55 GMT

We aren't right for each other. But I've accepted it.
You are just my best friend and I've almost accepted it. Except that you and I both know we will never be "just" anything to each other.
I'm aware that I haven't met my soulmate yet and if I have I don't know who he is yet. I'm working on accepting that.
I am almost halfway done with college. I am no where near accepting that.
I'm ready to meet someone new and keep moving on from whatever is holding me back in the past.
Acceptance. Reflection. Revelation. I think this break has been good for me. I am anxious and nervous for this semester to start. I feel as though I haven't set insurmountable goals but I am going to have to work really hard to achieve them. I hope I am up to the challenge. 2006 has been pretty good so far, I'd like to keep that up.
I don't really know what is going to come at me this semester but I know that I can handle whatever it is in some way or another.
I know I have to believe in myself and I hope I can accept that.

...and if we have to go another year, that's ok, because I know we can do it.

Friday the 13th...

Fri, 13 Jan 2006 20:04:48 GMT

Rose: Random little things that make me happy (Staples, new TV etc...) and potentially finding an internship for next semester.
Thorn: Winter break being almost over, debating whether or not I want to go back to school, and still not writing my philosophy of education.

Wow I suck.

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 16:42:52 GMT

Ok so over break I've totally sucked at Roses and Thorns. I'm gonna try and do the last 3 weeks right now.

December 23rd:
Rose: Finally being home and having the semester be over.
Thorn: Finals still happening and my parents being annoying because of my shitty grades and my shitty grades.

December 30th:
Rose: Seeing Becca and Eliora!!
Thorn: I don't exactly know what was bad that week but I'm going to go out on a limb and say it was being bored.

January 6th:
Rose: Being relatively busy and actually leaving the house and my IPOD finally getting here!! Getting my makeup done for my birthday and getting a haircut (because we all know how important appearance is to me.
Thorn: Still being bored and not doing my teacher ed application even though I know I should because I'll be too busy once I get back to school.

The End. I hope to keep up with this more in the future. That should be one of my New Years resolutions and then next year I can put together a book of them. Hmm, that is actually kind of cool. Yes I'm a dork. With that, I'm done.

Sidenote: I guess I did do a rose/thorn for the 23rd but this one is pretty much the same thing so ya know. We'll leave it here too.

Aaaand break

Tue, 27 Dec 2005 18:28:56 GMT

I feel like at this point in being home I should have something interesting to report or a revelation to talk about but I really don't. Home is kind of boring but I do like being here. I still have 2 1/2 more weeks and I'm sure they will fly by but I hope I get to see all the people I want to see.

It's also really great being afraid to call someone. I also don't enjoy when people leave the country, if everyone could come back now that would be great.

Now I must go to Best Buy with Dad and the brother...this should be interesting.

I'm thinking a new survey is in order for tonight...get excited.

Sat, 24 Dec 2005 00:58:26 GMT

Rose: Being home and all that it entails.
Thorn: Stupid professors and damn parents.

Fri, 23 Dec 2005 22:36:31 GMT

I FUCKING HATE MYSELF!
I HATE MY PROFESSORS!
I HATE EVERYONE!
THE ONE SEMESTER I ACTUALLY THINK I'M DOING WELL, I END UP SUCKING MORE THEN USUAL. WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING? I DON'T DESERVE TO GO TO AU. I'M NOT GOING TO BE ABLE TO GO ABROAD. THIS IS JUST GREAT.

Friday

Sun, 18 Dec 2005 04:20:19 GMT

Rose: My birthday, doing well on a history paper and classes ending.
Thorn: Finals. Enough said.

Sun, 18 Dec 2005 03:28:33 GMT

3 more days...if I could only focus and study then it will be an easy 3 days, otherwise who knows. Then finally a month of freedom. I cannot wait for my own bed, my own bathroom (well it is shared with the brother), good food, old friends, no drama, cars (pshhh but not me driving haha), visits to the good ole ABRHS, Salernos (I will NOT call it Sorrentos), Dunkin Donuts, Ginger Court, Route 2, Roche Bros, a haircut, family visits, camp reunions, Dunkin Donuts, Chanukah, my new ipod, the Pheasant Lane Mall and everything else that is wonderful about Acton, Massachusetts as well as the rest of New England.

It's been an interesting semester. I'm not sure how to really describe it. Maybe it was like a roller coaster ride. It definitely had a lot of ups and downs and in the beginning I was sure there were more downs than ups but I think in the end it was about even. I don't want to compare it to last year because they were just so different. Between this year and last year, I know at least for me I am in a very different place in my life now then I was last year. Granted, I am a year old and in a higher grade but still, something is different. Last year at this time I was pretty indifferent about going home. I was excited to go to Chicago but I was perfectly happy staying here. Right now, I can't wait to go home. I don't know if I actually appreciated it last year. I was too intent on being happy here and being on my own. It is great and I still like it here. I know I threatened to transfer but I really don't want to start over somewhere else. I'm learning how to deal with my problems, or more so my reactions to problems. I think I've been working on it and it's been going ok. I don't think that the situation that I came into this year with was the best but I've gotten through it.

I am so lucky to have so many people who care about me. I don't know if I would have made it to the end of the semester without them. I was scared at the beginning of the semester when I only had 4 people to call when I was upset. I know that I can turn to so many others now. All of the birthday messages and calls yesterday were amazing and I was so grateful for all of them.

Last year I was in love with my best friend and to no surprise, I still am. He is one of the most important people in my life and I don't know what I would do without him. I have come to accept that he is my best friend and if we turn into something more at some point, that's great. This summer I found someone that I clicked with and had a great time with. Being at school and far away from them has been hard and I don't know what is going to happen when we get home. I don't know how I feel about him anymore. I know I'm not supposed to have found my soulmate at 19 but it sure would make life a lot easier or at least a lot less confusing.

Seems appropriate that I write this right after my birthday although if I come up with any more insights before New Years I'll be sure to post them.

Keep smilin', keep shinin'
Knowin' you can always count on me, for sure
That's what friends are for
In good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

...always remember that.

Sat, 17 Dec 2005 06:48:15 GMT

BEST birthday in a very long time.

Yale, you can still kiss my ass.

Thu, 15 Dec 2005 21:29:00 GMT

Best dream ever.

Also, diet cherry coke is really yummy but caffeine isn't fun when you haven't really had much all semester.

Edit: I'm marrying Seth Cohen. It's official. Now all I need is the ring..and for him to be real.

Year in Review

Wed, 14 Dec 2005 08:02:02 GMT

I just did this in my xanga and I feel it is only appropriate to reciprocate by posting it for my LJ as well. I have a feeling some of it will be a little different.
Apparently I didn't create this until the end of April and also took a hiatus in June and July...so bear with me I had a rocky LJ year.

April: Haha I now I have a Live Journal AND a Xanga.
May: Thomas Richard Worthington Towell is so incredibly awesome!
June, Ok this was posted on May 31st but I think it should still count: Wahoo! First breakdown since I've been home from school!
August: Ok, I just don't understand. (The subject of this entry is: I hate society)
September: I can't believe camp has only been over for two weeks.
October: I just wanna curl up in the fecal position. **fetal...it's a joke
November: Rose: The amazing Ben Folds concert I went to last night and getting tickets to see Harry Potter EARLY and actually having a smile on my face for longer then 5 seconds.
December: Why do you do this to meeeeeee? (This is also the 2nd entry in December because the first was kind of boring)

So it seems that this is a more serious version and the Xanga does cover the whole year but I like this one just the same.

Deja vu

Sat, 10 Dec 2005 23:49:53 GMT

See entries from November 25th and September 9th.

Oh it's all happening again among other shit.

Having a love/hate relationship with The O.C.

It's Friday again!

Fri, 09 Dec 2005 22:18:30 GMT

Rose: My favorite Christmas movie being on tv and classes being almost over.
Thorn: Hurting my wrist and having to wear the stupid splint.

Highly uneventful week.

One week from today!!!

Mon, 05 Dec 2005 05:50:08 GMT

Why do you do this to meeeeeee?

HOW do you do this to me?

I fucking hate you.

But I really don't.